Recognizing your nature as an aspect of Source, while incarnated in the physical, is an exhilarating experience. It's been a wild ride back to this realization, and if it is a roller coaster of ups and downs for you too, welcome!
While experiencing your human incarnations, you’ve chosen to agree with the construct of linear time. This is built into Earth’s game board, so to speak. But it is by no means a requirement for playing on the board.