Was that a “Friday the 13th” fear popping in? Nah, I didn’t think so.
You’re past that superstition stuff now….right?
If it did, it’s just old Orion energy, skipping in for a visit. Many of us brought lower-energy focus into this incarnation for the purpose of exploring what it would be like to let it go. I call this rebalancing, but others may call it healing.
On the Earth plane, the number 13 has gotten a bad rap since Jesus’ last supper. That 13th guest was the tip of the iceberg when it comes to bad luck, since the symbolic connections go back much further: to our incarnations in the Orion star system. Humanity’s bank of symbols (common archetypes we’ve programmed for use in 3D existence) has assigned the number 13 to Orion energy, and we’ve collectively–and sometimes unconsciously—agreed to that association.
When we continuously activate a symbol in our awareness, we give it strength. It stays in our creational toolbox and is available for use in any new creation: positive, negative or otherwise.
If you are able to recognize the number 13’s emphasis on powerlessness, then you can release its (and any other superstition’s) hold on you. You’re divine! It’s just a symbol. A story to get you to investigate, consider, feel, thank and release your beliefs about how powerful a creator you are.
So give that dark part of yourself a big hug. Laugh at it if you can. Use the symbol for other purposes if you want, like I did here.
And remember who you are: The One Creating It All.
Feeling stuck on a timeline you don’t want to be on? Find out why.
This is the first of a series of Shoot-Outs—the rapid firing of questions to the Self–to facilitate recognition of unconscious limiting behavioral patterns which may be keeping you on an undesired timeline.
One day this weekend, sit with your morning beverage and write down some things you habitually do.
For each element in your routine, fire off the following questions in your head.Write down the answers! It frees up mind space:
Who are you doing it for?
Is it bringing you closer to what you want, away from what you want, or nowhere?
What do you expect to get from it?
What would happen if you didn’t do it?
Do you really want to be doing this, or do you feel like you’re supposed to?
And the grand finale:
What’s running in the background while you’re doing it?Is it excitement? Boredom? Desperation?
Sit. Feel. Observe.
This pause after asking these questions will bring you to the WHY of what you’re doing.
When you get to the WHY, you are at a conscious Point of Choice.
Do you want to keep doing this thing, or do something else? Remember that what served you before, when you were a different person, may not work for you now. After all, you no longer need to hold your mother’s hand anymore when you cross the street, do you? Some activities don’t reflect the new You that you have become.
Remember, you are a new person every moment, with every choice you make.
By recognizing what you’ve actually been choosing for yourself, and WHY, you can evaluate whether or not these repetitive actions are bringing you closer to what you want, or further away.
You may find yourself getting rid of routines that make no sense.
This will never feel like sacrifice.Rather, it will be more of a release…and hopefully with an acknowledgment of thanks for the experience, as fun (or not fun) as it was.
You are a sovereign being, and you get to choose what you think about…and how you interact with anyone or anything. Your choices form into the physical reality that you see and experience around you.Why not make all of them conscious ones? You have always had that power.
May your soul’s every wish be fulfilled. Love to you.
In metaphysics, toroidal fields encompass all of life. In our heart spaces, we are constantly receiving and transmitting energy.
What if our transmissions were operating from an awareness of “everything is going to be okay”? Is that process less valid than potentially transmissible spirals of fear? Is there a higher purpose to both of these mechanisms?
Fear can play the most limiting role in our ascension–it is a primary catalyst for all forms of separation between humans, other species, ecosystems, and our higher selves.
Wellness is a state of being…not doing.
Awakening is about remembering who you are. The torus shows the art and science of every influential wave of energy.
Your inner-monologue of polarity offers you a choice NOW–spoken between the metaphysical, spiritual, psychic, physical, mental, and emotional planes of your existence. Consciously, subconsciously, unconsciously, and collectively, we are one totality of expression. Without accepting time and space as facts, and depending on your perspective, the symphony of life could be a monologue, or it could be an improvisational dance of free will.
Your choice is in the polarity of this infinite moment.
This breath. Spirit comes from the same root word as respiration. It is the force that carries your soul in and out of physical experiences. BREATHE. Your breath is your birthright. Fear hides in breath, as do many subconscious transmissions; even when your higher self knows there is nothing to be afraid of.
What is your choice?
What is the energy–the spirit–the weight you carry by your breath? The energy that you receive (breathe-in) and transmit (breathe-out)… Do you know what a sigh of relief and comfort feels like? Sounds like? Do you know what a breath of derision and anger feels like? Sounds like?
The timelines and feelings you live with are always ready to be transformed; if you are consciously waving your finger under a waterfall, the particles of energy that make up the lake below are co-creations of light and your deliberate transmutations. Tracing back your behaviors and outcomes to these feelings, and these feelings to these thoughts–these thoughts you assigned importance to–brings awareness to your choice of positivity or negativity: love and the wisdom to use it well–or fear and the obedience to follow it.
A well-integrated mind-body-spirit complex, or a human being of light, is crystallized by positively interpreting spirals of energy when interacting with spirits and environments–transmitting that same polarity in all directions. Unity Consciousness is a state of being that does not create realities of separation.
You have no enemies; only reflections of yourself and learning opportunities.
When you understand fear holistically, you recognize that the creativity, love, wisdom, communication, intuition, and spirituality you prefer will not function when our minds, bodies, and spirits are vehicles of automatic negative thoughts and fear-based thinking.
Instead of a human doing, you are a human BEING. Be yourself.
Everything else needed will come to you naturally if you’re operating from a belief that you can create anything–a belief of “everything is going to be okay.”
You chose to be here. You can choose to learn from every torus, and from every vesica piscis–when different worlds’ of thought collide, and when people come together to form new systems of living based on common ground. Thank you for being here.
How many of your daily thoughts are fear-based? How many of your thoughts are based on an inner-knowing of “everything is going to be okay”? — or to take it a step further, “everything is okay”?
Laugh. It’s measurably greater than fear. Breathe and remember to have fun. Your preferred polarity is blossoming now.
It’s clear that something has gone terribly wrong with men striving to be Man Enough.
We see evidence of this everywhere, and it begs the question: What can men do about it?
This article offers men a blueprint for cleansing themselves from the pressures of toxic masculinity and forging a path to self-actualization.
Choose Your Social Circle
One noteworthy step in my spiritual progression occurred when I decided to clean out my social closet. This was prompted by one simple piece of advice that came from a fellow man I met online. To paraphrase his main point:
“When you don’t want to take part in a social norm, the greatest and only power you have is to walk away. And if you’re afraid of being alone, you don’t even have that.”
When he said this, I suddenly realized how much power could be gained from overcoming my fear of being cut off or isolated from others.
From that moment on, I raised the bar for the kind of people I wanted to surround myself with, favoring inspiring books over fake friends. You can do the same.
Stop Being a Hero
As men, we desire a sense of certainty about how we understand the world and choose to navigate through it. The cliché of men not wanting to ask for directions comes from our instinct to lead others.
Programmed to view the role of “follower” as emasculating, we all grab frantically at the helm of humanity, failing to synchronize with each other or our female counterparts.
We do this because making a change and taking directions from others means admitting that we don’t have all the answers and need others to help us find our way. It also means forgiving ourselves for being imperfect.
If we truly want to be of service, we need to start by giving ourselves some slack and listening to others.
Takeaways
If you want to make a lasting change, it’s important that you don’t just leave this article without setting an intention. Start your transformation by putting pen to paper, writing down your own takeaways from the following points:
If you feel like people in your social circle are negative and putting pressure on you to conform, start letting them go. Letting go of them is how you will begin to let go of who you think you are.
Recognize that it’s perfectly acceptable not to know who you are or who you want to be. Not knowing is a state of emptiness that empowers you with the receptive capacity to discover and choose who you want to be.
Find your heroes and follow them. These are people you aspire to emulate and connect with. It doesn’t matter if you connect directly with them. What matters is that you listen to them. By doing this, you’re forging a relationship with those heroes and using their example as a model to live by.
You change realities every time you make a new choice.
Little choices, and big choices. All choices.
With each decision you make, you transform into a completely new person; and you move to another version of Earth that supports the revised “You.” Maybe you faced a fear, or got rid of an annoying habit. Maybe you withheld judgment when you normally would have cast dagger eyes at another’s behavior.
Despite your being on a new version of Earth, it might not look all that different to you, at first glance. With your new attitude and all, you’ll expect more of the things you desire to start showing up in your physical world…and quickly. You have made a big change!
But instead, you could see the same old things you’ve been seeing, and it’s easy to conclude that the Law of Attraction only works some of the time. Or for everyone except for you. Or…never…if you sink down to the emotional basement and wallow.
So why do indications of the old “You” still show up even though you’ve made changes?
Let’s take an imaginary walk through a forest, along a nice flat path. You are enjoying the nature around you, maybe touching a tree here and there, surrounded by chirping birds. You’re in appreciation and it’s a good place.
Walk a little further, and you see something up ahead. It’s dull and metal, an eyesore. As you walk closer, you see it’s an empty soda can, thrown in the foliage alongside your serene path.
Maybe your tranquility comes to a halt, and your mind turns to thoughts that are not so positive. “Who would do that?” “Why would someone be so careless as to leave this here?” “Humans are hopeless.”
I’ve been there, and I know how good vibes can come to a halt when faced with something we find incomprehensible.
Yet nothing in your purview is random. Even evidence of behavior you don’t exhibit.
You may not be a person that throws cans on the ground. Yet I’m guessing that sometime, somewhere, you threw something on the ground and didn’t care to pick it up. If you can honestly say you have never done this (put a “Saint” in front of your name), then I can guarantee that you know someone who has. It has been a part of your reality at some point in time.
The appearance of an object like this, which I call fallout, is a glimpse of another’s reality. Since we’re all connected and sharing a collective landscape, we “bump up against each other” every once in a while due to previous associations. It’s leftover evidence of a previous version of “You.”
You’re seeing that can there, to gauge how you’ll respond to seeing it.
So, you have choices:
To remember your can-throwing days, and concede that people change if they want to. You did!
To judge the can-thrower as an un-evolved troglodyte.
To observe your feelings about the event with neutrality.
Neutrality is, of course, the least resistant path. And how you respond to this event is what determines which reality you will choose next. A compassionate or neutral choice, and you’ll aim yourself towards a timeline in which you’ll see fewer and fewer indications of such past versions of “You.”
If there’s outrage, then you’ve shown the Universe that you choose to continue taking part in that reality and “more cans will you see,” in Yoda terms.
When a storm ends, it takes a while for the dust to settle.
In the meantime, you’ll see such things so you can confirm that they are not what you prefer anymore. By continuing to focus on what you do want to experience (tree touching, birds singing), then the fallout will stop appearing as you build momentum towards the more preferred reality.
There are a whole lot of versions of “You” out there. So when something you’re “finished with” reappears, remember that there are others still partaking in a reality you’ve experienced. Even though you left that timeline, it still continues on—in both directions—without you. It’s your choice whether or not you opt to go back and visit.
When I was a little girl, a gentle being with large eyes told me that I would never be without a spider.
This statement didn’t fit in anywhere until early adulthood, after I’d had a few changes of residence under my belt. The being was right; everywhere I live, a spider sets up shop in my kitchen. They are usually black widows, which wield the fiercest symbolism among all of the fearsome options in the spider kingdom.
My current kitchen spider has been with me for two years. She lives beneath the floor lamp that lights my artistic workspace, and after all this time, we’ve come to know each other well.
Why do spiders show up?
Bugs have historically been a source of terror for humans. Scapegoats, in my opinion, along with the snakes…they’ve been given a bad rap. Think about it: When was the last time one lunged out of the corner to attack you?
Yet those who view the world as a dangerous place will be the first to squash them when they appear in spaces that we call “our own.”
Any sense of invasion is a fallacy, of course; for if a spider shows up in your environment, it is just as valid a part of your creation as the lamp it lives beneath. You may love it or hate it, or something in between, but it’s you who put it there.
How does squashing the things that you fear work for you?
Everything you see, hear, feel and experience is a part of you. If you have labeled something as “Just a…. (anything),” then you have concluded that your existence is more valuable than someone else’s.
Expect this to come back to you.
So before you pull out the shoe, observe the spider from another level.
Bend down and look at it. It’s safe…most of them don’t jump…(wink).
Ask yourself some questions:
Why is it there? What do spiders represent for me? How do I feel about them being in my space?
Such reflections will become standard for you as you awaken, for you’ll want to consciously apply your lessons to multiple levels. You’ll be addressing the creepiness enforced by social conditioning/Hollywood movies (physical level); exploring appropriate symbolism specific to you (emotional level); and taking responsibility for what shows up in your life (creational level).
Here are some common spiritual themes that may invoke a spider in your world:
The value of life in all forms. Does it deserve to live?
The right to live in a specific space. Is it impinging on my territory?
Victimhood. Is it out to kill me?
Powerlessness. What if it bites me while I’m sleeping?
My guides call the spiders “Veterans.” After all, they lose everything each time the cleaning lady makes a good sweep (which apparently mine doesn’t), and they immediately set up home again when the coast is clear. A representation of your own inherent qualities, if you choose to activate them.
Establishing a relationship with your kitchen spider
Consider how our indigenous cultures live in unison with the nature around them. Earth offers many examples of such symbiotic relationships. If they can do it, then we all can do it.
…and realize that you may come to like the little bugger. What once was an irrational fear turns to curiosity, and then to fondness, and then to its own kind of love.
Even if spiders still scare you, adopting a “you don’t bother me, and I won’t bother you” attitude will yield some very positive results. See what happens when you do this. If you have children, introduce them to the spider, and discuss it with a sense of wonder rather than fear. The animal kingdom is quite receptive to a welcome environment, and respect is returned in kind. If fear for your child’s safety overpowers everything else, then move the spider to a jar for rehoming outside. This demonstrates respect for the well-being of everyone involved, while illuminating your current belief systems along the way. Incidentally, my grown son has a kitchen spider of his own.
Your attention to repairing relationships with “Others That Scare You” sends out a powerful message to the Universe. It shows your dedication to transformation for a more unified co-existence. This intention calls immense power to you, for use in spinning your own Web of Creation…one based in integrity and respect for those who share your world.
“Here’s What Happens When You Channel a Spider” is a digital watercolor I created while connecting with my kitchen spider. Her messages arrive in bold images, colorful, and overlapping. She calls me “pig.”
Should you choose to read further about spider symbolism, check out Spirit-Animals.com.
Should you wish to order a print of the spider’s art, you can find it at my ArtStation site.
It’s happened to us all at least once. You leave something on the dresser, and when you come back to look for it, it’s nowhere to be found.
You may search frantically, and finally when you give up and call it lost…there it is, sitting right on the dresser just where you left it.
Oh, the confusion!Why does it have to be so hard to be human?Why do these things happen?Why mess with our minds like that?
Remember, everything you experience on Earth has an inherent lesson.And we’re talking about lessons on all levels of creation, ranging from the physical you, to your Higher Self, and beyond.Yes, even your Higher Selves are learning lessons.
Let’s run through a scenario that I experienced a few weeks ago.It began with a pair of lost earrings, which I kept in a small plastic bag.A year ago, I’d gone on a frantic search for them, for I’d finally had something to wear them with.They’d gone years in that tiny plastic bag, passed over for other jewelry that I liked better.And when I finally needed them…they were nowhere to be found.
I moved across town, and the lost earrings fell away from my attention.Fast forward two years, and one Sunday morning as I passed my open bedroom door, I noticed something on the carpet just outside of my slightly ajar closet door.The small plastic bag containing my earrings.
The mind charged full on, up that first hill of the roller coaster.Up, up, WTF, how?
As humans we must find an immediate explanation for everything.We are logical creatures!It is only right that we know the truth!
We’ll access all the files of our belief systems, in a frantic search for an explanation that correlates with our current world view.And yet there will be some that we just can’t file neatly away with simple answers.
Such experiences encourage introspection.So let’s take a look at three levels of awareness and see what we can learn from our disappearing item.
First we ask ourselves a question:
Why are these earrings, that have been missing for years, suddenly here on the bedroom floor?
Note that the question begins with “why” rather than “how.”We want to form the question to include symbolic explanations as well as physical ones. By using “why” you are asking the question to a level of Self that has access to a broader perspective than the Self standing there with a plastic bag and a dumbfounded look.
Now, hang out for a sec, with the item in your hand.It has energy, and you are reading it.
Answers will most likely start on the 3D physical level.This is to reduce fear while in the “freak-out” stage, which is when a physical explanation is required to calm your anxiety.
“Blame it on the cat.She must have found them stuffed for safe keeping in one of my seldom-worn shoes, and turned them into a toy to bat around.She bores quickly, so they weren’t too far from the closet.”
Explanations in physical terms are a fail-safe; they provide you with an answer that will settle your mind.This may be as far as you’re currently willing to go with this experience, and you could go on with your day.You’ll have your explanation that fits into your world view, and your sense of reality is restored.
But do your best to experience the full roller coaster ride. Let yourself whiz down that first hill and see what arises.
The next level is what I call 4D.This is the intuitive part of you.
The one that senses things, and feels things even though you can’t explain them.It’s the part of you that concedes that there are forms of life that you can’t see, but you can still experience.
“Oh, thank goodness! I have guardian angels helping me along.They returned my lost earrings!”
Here, you’ve confirmed your beliefs that things happen in realms outside of your physical one. You’re being watched over. At this level, you will work on any lingering beliefs about demonic possession, people observing you without your permission, and personal safety.
Let’s go higher, and see what your 5D self is wanting you to see.
At the 5D level you are exploring symbolism.
“What do my missing earrings symbolize?”
All of the belongings surrounding us have energy.And while they are in our environment, we are responsible for that energy.Is there someone who would use that item every day?I bet there is; and by hoarding things we withhold those gifts from a fellow human.
They are also symbols of my ability to attract things into my life.Everything vibrates at a particular frequency.And for years, this item was outside of my frequency.What is the difference between the Me that couldn’t see this item, and the Me that can?
How does it make you feel that you’ve withheld this energy? Guilty? Sad? Unevolved? Here are more areas to explore.
You can expand our perspective even higher, if you get quiet and allow it.
But don’t fall into the “I’m getting nowhere” trap if you can’t raise your perception higher than 5D.You’ll get flashes of it now and then, which will make higher levels of awareness easier upon your next conscious attempt. Here’s a hint:You’re controlling all of it.
I’ve listed some areas below to help you explore this phenomenon according to your chosen level of consciousness.Hopefully the questions will guide you inside to find the reasoning behind your lost item.
And, that lost item!I guarantee that no matter what it is that you lost and recovered, you will look at it differently forever more.It’s intended that way; to remind you that there is indeed magic everywhere you look—and also where you don’t look. And that magic is YOU.
Areas to explore if you have experienced the return of a lost item:
Lessons on the 3D level:
Must you always have a physical explanation for any occurrence?Why?
Do you believe that there is only one answer for any occurrence? Who told you that?
What happens if you can’t find an explanation for this occurrence?
Lessons on the 4D level:
Can I concede that I can’t explain this occurrence just yet?
Do Others have power over me?
Do Others have powers that I don’t have? (St. Anthony, or Archangel Chamuel, for example?)
Can they see more than I can see?
Who are these Others?Are they mirrors of me?
Lessons on the 5D level:
Is this an item you love? If not, why is it here?
How long was this item gone before you missed it? Are you rightfully managing this energy (including time)?
What is the disparity of frequency between the You that could see them and the You that couldn’t?
What is the energy of the missing item?Sad?Nostalgic?
Does it represent a period in your life needing release?
Does it remind you of something you need to get done?
Remember: when you love your props, more props show up.
Were you ever just, you know, doing something…and all of a sudden you get a hitch in your throat like you have to cough? A tickle in the back that pops up out of nowhere? If so, take note, for it’s not a fluke.
There might be nothing physical blocking your throat at all. Rather, it’s an energetic block trying to clear itself.
There are parts of you that want to communicate, and they aren’t all standing in front of you with mouths from which to speak.
So who is communicating with you?
Asking this question of yourself can open many avenues of discovery, as you contemplate your views on demonic possession, your ability to allow yourself as a channel for extraterrestrial or extra-dimensional entities, and your inherent abilities to accept messages from beyond.
Since you’re creating your reality, all of these others are really just you; but while we’re in a human body, we play along with the Others’ game to give our learning experience a little more flair. Which Others, though?
If you have a fearful world view, then those Others could include your version of whatever demons you believe could possess you. I’m pretty sure we’ve all solidified the image of Linda Blair’s head doing the 360 in The Exorcist.
With influence like this being fed into us, it’s easy to believe that there’s some bad guy out there to get you. It sells things. But truth is, it’s a lie. My guides don’t just incarnate and show up in my physical world. It would make my lessons so much easier to understand, right? Their answer was succinct and blunt:
“Because we don’t want to be human.”
As IF. The nerve. What are we, the chopped liver of the incarnates? As self-righteous as their answer made me, it opened a door to the knowledge that humans are just one option of a gazillion options that souls have to take form; and not everyone wants the human experience. Adventure for evolving souls abounds. In the case of non-physical guides, assisting me from another dimension allows them a different perspective from which to grow.
They did agree that the existence of tacos were a valid reason to take human form.
You may grapple with fears of possession for years, or months, or only minutes, if you’re waking up now. Earth’s energy is accelerating so rapidly that it’s easier than ever to make that switch.
No one is out to get you.
Your imminent coughing experience is a symbolic reminder that communication comes on many levels. Not only through your ears or into your eyes, but also through the ether, in the form of feelings, intuition and inner imagery.
You have a team of loving souls, both physical and non-physical, that are guiding you along the path of where your soul said it wanted to go. Not everyone remembers this on every level, of course. What fun would that be?
And they use all sorts of methods to communicate. As you rebalance your fears about being possessed by something more powerful than yourself, you will open further up into acceptance that there are realities far beyond the reality you’ve been living in. It is then that new worlds open up to you because you know that the only thing that’s stopping you from living in them is your beliefs that you can’t.
So when you feel that hitch in your throat, you’re receiving feedback. Listen, with both sets of ears: those external receptors, and your internal ones that register voices. Additionally, watch for repeating images with both sets of eyes: your physical ones and your internal ones. And give your skin a chance to pick up on things you would normally explain away. And if you have the urge to speak, SPEAK! Record it on your phone or use automatic writing to get it on paper. Allow that channel to open up, and just like rusty pipes that need a little cleaning out, communication will become clearer with practice. The hardest part is allowing it in. After that, you may not be able to shut yourself up!
Your thoughts turn into form. And the air around you is rife with thoughts: yours, mixed with everyone else’s. Together they form a soup, which defines your external environment as you experience it.
When you allow these messages in, you’ll realize that you’re getting much more help than you ever thought existed. You will never feel alone again, for how can you when you’re sharing your environment with so many friends? They want to see you succeed, and while there may be some initial hand-holding while you clear out those icky beliefs, you’ll soon realize that no one is here to annihilate you.
Learning to pay attention to physical signs such as these will propel you forward on your awakening journey, and will add substance to your daily life out there in the 3D world. This is you, bridging that gap between the physical and non-physical. So go enjoy some tacos, and give thanks that we are allowed to use these amazing biological vehicles to feel, taste, speak and enjoy such amazing things.
Take a hint from itchy eyes – you are missing something. Here’s more on that.
Balance things out when your ears are itchy. If you suddenly find it hard to look other people in the eyes, watch this video.
Eyes are known to be the ‘window to a soul’ and they also reflect its evolutionary level. But, why are some people suddenly hit with an inability to look into others’ eyes?
If something like this happens to you, it’s a great symptom.
Without paying much attention to old beliefs and issues related to vulnerability, self-worth, power, or other fluff you probably heard before, let’s focus on the good stuff. At the energy level, this symptom means that you’re preparing for New Earth where communication between people is going to be much more about telepathy and intuition than words. As you evolve spiritually and so do other people surrounding you, it’s becoming more and more difficult to hide your story, whether you want it or not.
Avoiding eye contact is a signal for you to get ready for the new spiritual era when we all will be keeping no secrets from each other. Staring at your own reflection in the mirror will help you to start looking into other people’s eyes with more confidence and power.
Don’t hesitate to ask yourself questions and remember: we’re all one! There’s nothing to hide.
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